meditation
Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy, to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen [Jude 24-25, ESV]
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All these sins, they sit upon me
As I lay upon my bed
Have I been too lenient
Are those the voices in my head?
Is this sense of being wanting
As I'm weighed upon the scales
An honest diagnosis
Or an attack upon me?
I don't want reassurance
If they're just words to calm me down
This is my meditation
Whether there is reason to my fears
My hope has never been me
It's been Jesus who drew me near
This is my meditation
Whether there is truth behind this shame
Forgiveness never came from me
It came from the Lamb who was slain
You are my meditation
You are my meditation
I know it's not the first time
That I've struggled with despair
Somehow that knowledge doesn't help me
Not feel I'm suffocating
If I'm honest some days victory
Is simply fighting terror down
This is my meditation
Whether there is reason to my fears
My hope has never been me
It's been Jesus who draws near
This is my meditation
Whether there is truth behind this shame
Cleansing never came from me
It came from the Lamb who was slain
You are my meditation
You are my meditation
Maybe in the morning I'll be fine
Some days feels like the flip of a dime
But even if the heavy comes on strong
You say to give You all my burdens, take Your yoke, and come along...
You are my meditation
In the dark night of my soul
For as long as I am willing
You will make me whole
You are my meditation
You brought my past and present peace
And you guarantee my future
In your promise my I find peace